'Don't feel sorry for me': OJ Simpson's chilling 'suicide note' before Nicole Brown arrest resurfaces

'Don't feel sorry for me': OJ Simpson's chilling 'suicide note' before Nicole Brown arrest resurfaces
OJ Simpson left a chilling suicide note before his arrest in 1994 (Getty Images and Vinnie Zuffante/Getty Images)

LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA: OJ Simpson’s death on April 10, aged 76, has brought the spotlight back to the infamous handwritten suicide note left by the NFL star-turned-accused killer following the murder of his wife Nicole Brown in 1994.

The former Buffalo Bills running back enjoyed a magnificent athletic career and later ventured into acting as well. But his stardom was overshadowed when he was accused of the double murders of his wife Nicole Brown and her friend Ronald Goldman in 1994.

Though he was acquitted after an eleven-month-long televised trial - often dubbed as the ‘Trial of the Century’, the former football star faced multiple stressful situations and once left a three-page-long suicide note signed with a smiley.

As Simpson’s family announced his death on X (formerly known as Twitter), the handwritten note has resurfaced on the internet.

LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 17: A page of one of three letters written by O.J. Simpson are read by friend Robert Kardashian during a news conference at the Century City office of Simpson's attorney Robert Shapiro on June 17, 1994 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Vinnie Zuffante/Getty Images)
A page of one of three letters written by O.J. Simpson are read by friend Robert Kardashian during a news conference (Photo by Vinnie Zuffante/Getty Images)

OJ Simpson left the note after Nicole Brown’s death

Simpson’s second wife Nicole and her friend, Ronald Goldman were murdered outside her home in June 1994. According to The Mirror, Simpson was boarding a plane when the news broke about the killings.

His journey was cancelled and he was rushed back into the scene to get questioned.

Simpson was warned by the police that he had one day until the day after Nicole’s funeral on June 17, 1994, to surrender himself. If he failed to do so, the police would visit his home. 

After he failed to make an appearance at the police station, the authorities came to his address, only to find Simpson had fled after leaving behind the suicide note.

After finding the note, the Los Angeles Police Department notified all the police officers about Simpson’s disappearance. On the same day, around 5 pm, the note was read to the public by Simpson’s friend and lawyer, Robert Kardashian. 

LOS ANGELES - JUNE 17: Motorists wave as police cars pursue the Ford Bronco (white, R) driven by Al Cowlings, carrying fugitive murder suspect O.J. Simpson, on a 90-minute slow-speed car chase June 17, 1994 on the 405 freeway in Los Angeles, California. Simpson's friend Cowlings eventually drove Simpson home, with Simpson ducked under the back passenger seat, to Brentwood where he surrendered after a stand-off with police. (Photo by Jean-Marc Giboux/Liaison)
OJ Simpson was being driven by Al Cowlings in the Ford Bronco (white, R)  (Photo by Jean-Marc Giboux/Liaison)

Around 6 pm, Simpson was sighted by a driver who saw him in the signature white Ford Bronco being driven by his friend Al Cowlings.

The police ID’d them and a slow pace chase ensued with the cops chasing them down for over 60 miles.

At around 8 pm, Simpson drove the car back to his home where he got out of the vehicle after a long period and was arrested. The police found an assortment of items from the car including makeup glue, a fake mustache, a goatee, Simpson’s passport, and a gun.

Though he was acquitted after the lengthy trial, the handwritten suicide note created a sensation during that time.

Robert Kardashian read the chilling note

On the day of the note’s discovery, Simpson’s friend and lawyer Robert Kardashian read the suicide note to the public.

Robert Kardashian was 5 feet 7 inches tall (Getty Images)
Robert Kardashian read the letter (Getty Images)

Addressing the letter “To whom it may concern,” Simpson wrote, “First, everyone understand I have nothing to do with Nicole's murder. I loved her, always have and always will. If we had a problem, it's because I loved her so much.”

He went on to describe, “Recently, we came to the understanding that for now we were not right for each other, at least for now. Despite our love we were different, and that's why we mutually agreed to go our separate ways. It was tough splitting for a second time, but we both knew it was for the best.”

LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 17: A page of one of three letters written by O.J. Simpson are read by friend Robert Kardashian during a news conference at the Century City office of Simpson's attorney Robert Shapiro on June 17, 1994 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Vinnie Zuffante/Getty Images)
A page of one of three letters written by OJ Simpson are read by friend Robert Kardashian (Photo by Vinnie Zuffante/Getty Images)

After paying tributes to all his friends and children, Simpson continued, “I think of my life and feel I've done most of the right things. What the outcome, people will look and point. I can't take that. I can't subject my children to that. This way they can move on and go on with their lives.”

He added, “I've had a good life. I'm proud of how I lived. My mama taught me to do unto other. I treated people the way I wanted to be treated. I've always tried to be up and helpful so why is this happening? I'm sorry for the Goldman family. I know how much it hurts.”

Simpson continued, “Don't feel sorry for me. I've had a great life, great friends. Please think of the real O.J. and not this lost person,” before adding, “Thanks for making my life special. I hope I helped yours.”

He signed off with “Peace and love, O.J.” and added a smiley face emoji. 

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