Britney Spears opens up about feeling 'completely destroyed' and reflects on 'this game we call life' in a personal note

LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA: In a deeply personal message, Britney Spears admitted to feeling "completely destroyed" and pondered the intricacies of "this game we call life."

The 42-year-old "Princess of Pop" shared her latest thoughts and insights on her healing journey on Instagram on Monday night, June 3rd.

Britney shared images of different herbal treatments and a perplexing acupuncture diagram while discussing her recent "wild" trip to Las Vegas with her brother Bryan Spears, 47.

Britney Spears shares her healing journey in deeply personal message

Describing the Las Vegas holiday, the 'Toxic' hitmaker wrote, "So weird!!! I had a wild trip to Vegas and got a cold again !!! I really liked jamming with my brother !!!... It was pretty cool !!!"

The 'Gimme More' singer went on to talk about how she started thinking about life's major concerns after running into an old acquaintance.

"I met up with an old friend then realized how interesting time is !!! And to what makes it in my head speed up or slow down !!!" she wrote.

She continued, "What feeds your soul or what serves you interest and what makes you really want to participate in this game we call life !!! Or is it a game at all ???"

Britney continued with a devastating self-description of "completely destroyed."

Comparing her life to a game, she said, "I’ve had enough balls to serve any running season but most of the time I sat on the bench and never played at all... Something so different and wrong and broken so they might understand how completely destroyed I really was !!!"

The troubled star went on to say that she "might never be able to fully share" and that she has "a secret." Britney added, "There’s nothing better than the beauties of mystified destruction."

The Grammy Award-winning singer also sent her parents "good luck." Britney has a well-known complicated relationship with her parents.

In April, the celebrity was ordered to pay her father Jamie Spears' legal bills in the amount of an estimated $2 million (roughly £1.5 million).

This settlement came after the two parties resolved a legal dispute regarding the potential mismanagement of Britney's contentious conservatorship, per The Mirror.

Britney also talked about trying natural remedies for healing her body toward the end of the lengthy piece.

"I think it’s important for all women who have witnessed real madness of life to take time to reset, regroup, and manage yourself in finding ways to heal your body !!!" she wrote at the end of the post.

Britney Spears' 'damaged personality' causes her to suffer 'more pain', claims source

An informant told In Touch Weekly in a recent interview that Britney has a "damaged personality" and "low self-esteem," which raises concerns about her mental health.

"There’s no shortage of ways she can earn a living, but the real problem here is her broken personality, her low self-esteem, and all the personal setbacks she’s experienced in the last 15 years," the insider said, per Geo News.

The insider added, "It’s a huge hole she has to dig herself out of, and she doesn’t really have an emotional support system like other stars on her level have."

The insider addressed the levels of fame Britney achieved before to receiving the conservatorship, saying, "Britney can do anything with her life thanks to the work she put in and the fame she achieved starting in her teens."

"But the path she’s on now is only going to lead to more pain. The rift between her and her family has damaged her a lot more than even she realizes," the insider said in conclusion.