Billie Eilish says she dedicates her Chairman's Award 'to anyone who experiences hopelessness'
PALM SPRINGS, CALIFORNIA: Billie Eilish delivered an emotional speech after she accepted the Chairman’s Award for her Grammy-nominated 'Barbie' soundtrack hit 'What I Was Made For?' at the 35th Annual Palm Springs International Film Festival Awards on Thursday night, January 4.
The 22-year-old, after receiving a tribute from Barbie director Greta Gerwig, accepted the award alongside her brother and collaborator, Finneas, People reports.
What did Billie Eilish say?
“I would really like to say that this award and any recognition that this song gets, I just want to dedicate to anyone who experiences hopelessness, the feeling of existential dread and feeling like, what’s the point, why am I here and why am I doing this?” Eilish said at the Palm Springs Convention Center.
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The 'Everything I Wanted' singer continued, "I think we all feel like that occasionally, but I think if somebody like me, with the amount of privilege that I have and the incredible things that I get to do and be and how I have really not wanted to be here… sorry to be dark, damn, but I’ve spent a lot of time feeling that way."
Eilish, who opened up about her mental health struggles in the past, added, "I just want to say to anyone that feels that way, be patient with yourself and know that it is, I think, worth it all." She also said "it’s good to be alive now” after not feeling like that for “a very long time.”
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Billie Eilish 'was in a dark episode' when approached to work on the 'Barbie' soundtrack
Eilish also explained that when she and Finneas, 26, were approached to work on the 'Barbie' soundtrack, she “was in a dark episode and things didn’t make sense in life." "I just didn’t understand what the point was and why you would keep going. [I was] questioning everything in the world," she said.
However, after the pair watched a 35-minute cut of Gerwig's film, the concept "resonated" with Eilish. "I felt so seen, and I did not expect that,” said the 'Bellyache' artist, who then incorporated the film's themes into what would become 'What Was I Made For?.'
“I think that this movie is the most incredible, most empowering and beautiful and funny and just unbelievable piece of art in the world, and I’m so honored to be a part of it," said Eilish.
During a red carpet interview with ET at the awards show, Eilish and Finneas also addressed why they didn't make a cameo in 'Barbie.' “It wasn’t about that, it wasn’t about that. It was 'Barbie’s little heart thing, you know? I wasn’t… it’s not about me, it’s about her," Eilish said, while Finneas added that “it was too late.”
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