Allison Holker says Stephen 'tWitch' Boss' ayahuasca journey changed him, admits he 'never fully escaped'

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LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA: While promoting her memoir 'This Far: My Story of Love, Loss, and Embracing the Light', Allison Holker Boss revealed that her late husband, Stephen 'tWitch' Boss, underwent an ayahuasca journey that profoundly changed him.

During a conversation on 'The Jamie Kern Lima Show', Holker said, “I think it was a very big turning point for him.”

Emotional impact on Stephen tWitch Boss' family

Speaking about Stephen 'tWitch' Boss' spiritual experience, Allison Holker reflected, “I feel like his heart was never really in the same place when he came back. There was something missing in his eyes.”

“It just kind of feels like he opened something up to himself that he never healed. And never fully escaped," she continued.

The professional dancer expressed sorrow over what her husband endured but emphasized that she would always cherish the good in him.

“I’m really sad about what he went through, but I will always celebrate him as a wonderful person,” she said.

However, she acknowledged the difficulty of reconciling his choices, particularly their impact on their children.

Holker shares son Maddox, nine, and daughter Zaia, five, with Boss and has a 16-year-old daughter, Weslie, from a previous relationship.

“That’s a really fine line I have to walk as a mother right now … because [the kids] are very hurt by their father’s decision,” she said.

“And they have a lot of triggers that they have to be in therapy now to really work through,” she added.

Despite the challenges, Holker is encouraged by their resilience.

“What I am impressed with is that they are doing the work, and they are putting in the time, and they are finding joy in life, and they are finding laughter again,” she added.

“But there's a lot to unpack for them that they'll have to deal with for the rest of their lives," she shared.

Allison Holker reflects on why she is sharing their story

In January, Allison Holker addressed criticism surrounding her memoir, which details Stephen 'tWitch' Boss' struggles and his tragic passing in December 2022 at age 40.

“To fans of Stephen and our family and friends, I want to be clear that my only intention in writing the book is to share my own story as well as part of my life with Stephen to help other people,” she explained.

“Just like you, I never really knew what happened, and even as I am trying to put the pieces together, I will never really know,” continued the 'So You Think You Can Dance' judge.

“I hope that by sharing our full story maybe I can help someone else who might see themselves or a loved one in Stephen. In sharing, I hope maybe they catch some [of] the red flags that I missed before it’s too late,” she added.

Allison Holkers' advocacy for mental health awareness

Since Stephen 'tWitch' Boss’ death, Allison Holker has been dedicated to raising awareness about mental health.

She has collaborated with organizations such as the National Alliance of Mental Health, Solomon Family Solutions, and The Defensive Line to educate herself and others on warning signs of mental health struggles.

“My hope is that we don’t need to lose another husband, brother, father, or friend to suicide,” she stated.

“I believe that if Stephen were able to choose, he would choose to have his story told if it meant saving even one life,” said Holker.

“Much love to all those who supported our family these many years,” she concluded, according to People.